naughty? me?? nah, just loud!

five months

the unconditional love for your children

Ilia is five months today. Time flies when you're having a wee one. He's becoming more and more alive, eats veggie and fruit mash now, doesn't drink as much milk anymore. Takes everything into his wee little hands and puts it into his mouth. He's grown, weighs more - 6k340 yesterday, gets the hamstercheeks ;)

His godfather, who has a son of his own, and i were talking just this afternoon, and we're both quite fed up with relationships... Either your heart gets broken, or you break someone elses heart, you're being cheated on, betrayed, eventually lied to and mistrusted... (doesn't sound too good really) but there's a bright side to all this misery, and that it from the moment you have a kid, that doesn't really matter anymore, cause you feel a love that you've never felt before and will never know with anyone except your own flesh and blood... I love Ilia so much, I love the way he smiles at me first thing in the morning, I love the little screams he produces when he's laughing, I love everything about him. First day in daycare, I cried. He didn't, because he doesn't really realise it yet, but i cried, almost the entire way to work (that's more than 50 km). I never cried so much over a boy before...
Even when i'm in a bad mood, or very tired and grumpy, Ilia can always make me smile. That is the unconditional love from a mum to her son. This and nothing else ;)

until i find you

'until i find you, i keep on dreaming

until i find you, i keep on breathing'

Wonderful lyrics by Tim Vanhamel, former Evil Superstart and dEUS. Normally Tim is a funky weirdo with even stranger but super music (Millionaire... brings back a load of memories about deliciuos cookies (Lama ;)) and great strip acts... but this song is so real, so emotional. First time i heard it, i even cried in the car... And the clip was shot in the vooruit in gent... check it out!

dummies

As you asked

something interesting is bound to happen

Tomorrow Ilia will go to daycare for the very first time. It will be a radical change in both our lives, but i guess we will get used to it. Me, going back to work, getting up early, and for Ilia, meeting his future friends, and playing all day with the nurses and other kiddies. I kind of look forward to it, and yet not. Time flies when you're having fun, or when you're raising kids ;) He's 4 months already, my gorgeous precious little spaceman...

another girlfriend ;)

The other day a friend and her daughter came to visit Ilia and me. It was FUN!