2009

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
kissed a girl
kept my new years resolutions

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yes, just because they were fun! (going to the sauna or have a massage at least once a month)

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, as last year, and the year before that...

4. Did anyone close to you die?Yes, my grandad.

5. What countries did you visit?England, France, and some of them must have slipped my mind i guess..

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Warmth

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
memory of a goldfish, can't remember dates

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting promoted i guess.

9. What was your biggest failure?
getting promoted i guess :)

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No, just longtermtiredness. And a mild spring/summer/autumn/winterdepression.

11. What was the best thing you bought?euhm....

14. Where did most of your money go?Ilia of course

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?Ilia of course

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Just say Yes, snow patrol. That's the spirit i want to see much more in 2010, no more doubts, no more chitchat, but action! Say yes, and see where it gets you...

18. Compared to this time last year, are you richer or poorer?
Richer, in friendship for sure. Lost a friend tho, still not too happy about that, but that's life i guess...

19. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Sports, spend some time with the little muppet, oh and travel.

20. What do you wish you'd done less of?Work

21. How will you be spending Christmas?Xmas at mum's place.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?Yes.

24. What was your favourite TV program?4400

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?Try not to hate.

26. What was the best book you read?'koraline' neil gaiman (kids book but weird as hell)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
And So I Watch You From Afardid blow me away live. Amenra did as well. Rediscovery of peaches and the notwist.

28. What did you want and get?a new car

29. What did you want and not get?a cool loving boyfriend

30. What was your favourite film of this year?inglorious basterds

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?31, not much.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
a little more happiness and a little less loneliness

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Same as last year: nonexistent ;)

34. What kept you sane?Friends, but especially ILIA (he rocks)

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?Chris wee, drummer of asiwyfa :D

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
our crappy prime minister for the second failure in a row

37. Who did you miss the most?
Ronja, Henna, Liz.

38. Who was the best new person you met?Jurgen, Peter and Sacha

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
Live every day like it's your last. Dance like no one can see you, sing like no one can hear you, but have fun for christ sake... and stop whining.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be the star in somebody elses life
But why can't it be mine?

(Black - Pearl Jam)

sinterklaas

he met zwarte piet, they didn't put him in the bag. Now waiting for sinterklaas to come...

opening the window

makka pakka!!!!

thanks andy for sending him this cuddly, talking makka pakka!!!

it drives me insane but ilia adores it ;)

fucking fathersday

I hope that you die

and your death will come soon

i'll follow your casket in the pale afternoon

and i'll see you get lowered into your deathbed

and i'll stand on your grave till i'm sure that you're dead.

aMAZEing

BOOT!!!

Mummy, am i wet enough?

Ilia's godfather and Arne, the pirate seperated from us by splashing water

Yesterday we went to an amazing park, with a huge maze, petting zoo, playground, not that far from the Belgian Border. Arne and Ilia had so much fun (and were only in bed around 9.30!) and so did Koen and I. The weather was absolute brilliant so that really made the day.

hahaha

fudge

love those canadian magnets

love canadians.

magnets

boyish girl or girlish boy?

i wish i knew

yesterday, at les nuits botanique, i saw a wonderful girl perform. Just her and her guitar, it was too moving to be true (and later i discovered that she's a very nice girl as well!) Her voice was so utterly brilliant, i think it makes angels drool ;)
Ronja, sweety, don't know why, but i had to think about you... loved every second of it... here's one of her songs, or at least one of the lyrics of her songs ;)

i wish i knew

what to do with you

but the truth is

i ain't got a clue

do you?

i wish i had an idea

of what i need

but we can't know

and that's okay

that's okay

i wish you'd understand

i wish that i could know

the truth is i have no idea

i wish i could just run around

and only worry

about right now

i hate to admit it

but i don't know shit

and neither do you

do you

and

that's good enough for me

for you

for now

as long as we can talk about it.

Sharon van Etten

because i was in love

2009

extremely loud and incredibly close

nope, not about ilia, but a very good intens book i'm reading by jonathan safran foer.

"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn't the world, it wasn't the bombs or burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don't know, but it's so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I've thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it."

mano mundo - antwerp 10th of May

my very first festival. cool eh ;)

milk? cookies?

the hell with milk and cookies

just give me titties and beer

the last week

naughty superman ;)

lovely boy

RIP grandad 18.06.1919 - 14.03.2009

I've been asking myself: what's the point in living? My grandad almost became 90. Today he was cremated. He lived, took very good care of me as a kid (caravan travels to luxembourg, feeding me these funny 8-shaped, pudding filled pastries , baking the best chips in the whole world, doing our garden after my dad had left us, liking his alcoholic snaps once in a while) always being very cheery and happy when i saw him... but at the same time he wasn't happy. Cheated on my gran a couple of times but stayed with her and paid his debts... From that time onwards, they fought, all the time... It's a shame, they both could haven been so happy... But weren't...
I once promised him, as a little girl, that i would one day have a son to continue our familyname. And 25 years later, i do have a son (who he, for the few times that i visited during the past year, loved to bits...) and he has my name, so the family tree continues. I've never been proud of my last name, but today i was. Weirder things have happened...

because you asked

Rugby shirts, we'll support England on saturday.

dancing euhm queen?

dancing while checking the stereo now and again... handy boy, my boy ;) He seems to like beyonce.

MetallicA

great picture

great guy who took it

great guy who's on it

life can be easy with the right music on the background

chocosmoeltje ;)

Tom was very sneaky and took a picture of me while i was munching a lovely sandwich with choco! I mmmmmmmmed it! it was covered with nutella, and my face was as well...

an invitation by O.H.Dreamer and me

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.

I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...

I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.

I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.

If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day.

And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.

I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

...

That's what i want to know about the person I want to share my life with.

Lovely words

not mine, but i took the liberty to use them...

18 months

Tomorrow, my wee boy is 18 months. Time really flies. I love him more than i ever loved anyone before (but he's incredible cute - that's what probably does the trick;)) but he can drive me absolutely bonkers at times as well... But in the end, we hug and make up, each and every time...
He's great, but i bet every mum says that about her kid. He's babbles nonstop, loves animals to bits (especially basil), can be incredibly naughty with the cutest of smiles, loves in the night garden (it's the only tv show he actually watches), loves biscuits, spaghetti and fruit, knows a few words already, calls everyone papa ;) enjoys his bath and bedtime. My life has never been more wonderful since he's in my life. Can't wait for the next years to come.

een bord met spaghetti en daarbovenop ...

Ilia ate all by himself today. He made a mess but made me so proud ;)

my wee spaghettimonster

huge feet

find the toddler

diplomacy

Saw this quote on my colleague's desk today. Loved it.

'A diplomat is a person

who can tell you to go to hell

in such a way that you actually

look forward to the trip'

your name has never been so lovely

The fairylike letters were sent to me by my gorgeous george.

Thanks again my elfin friend.

little thief

great little freaky animation on atom.

happy newyear sprinkles x